"Hell hath no fury like a bean gone bad"....read on

Some song. Ah.
Well I figure I need to change. I have changed I guess to some degree but I need to turn that away from the direction it is heading. I plan on doing a few things. Going to write more. I haven't done that in a while. I might have plans for the military because I need to get away from all of this rediculousness. Plus it is dangerous. I want to throw myself right out there.  No lie. A blunder no doubt. Not for support of country or politics. But just because. Maybe I'll come home with some sort of trauma. Then who changed? Certainly I will have. Then maybe I'll have some sort of vestige of respect. I plan on this. I really am.
But no one will know when I go. Just one day arise and be gone. If I go down in action you can read about me in the paper. Or I can come back with a sorbid aboumt of tales.


Oh and less drinking. It isn't that I do it a lot. But just in general. Like less than once a week with friends. I started to see this girl. Not seeing yet. But it seems to go somewhere. Really swell. Funny and nice. She told me she would kick someones ass for assaulting me. That assured me. But that wasn't important. it is Mel's and Ricky's younger sister.  Closer to my age then Mel. But yeah....  Go for broke. I am throwing myself into this. I'm sick of living like this.  I have a bible. It was from the trunk of my car. It was given to me by an acquaintence who thought that with all of my personality and shit that I do that I could use one. I don't know why. In the trunk of my car I was cleaning out my possessions. I crashed so bad that the frame was twisted and the trunk would not open. So I was in the back seat reaching through the seat pulled down and pulling out stuff in the trunk. I pulled out a bible. how funny.